The Household of God
Volume 2
Rise and spiritual prime of the first world empire Hanoch
- Chapter 96 -
THE FRIGHTENING PHENOMENA DURING THE MORNING MEAL. ADAM'S AGITATION AND ANXIETY
When at Abedam's bidding all had sat down eating and drinking, even including Adam although his short-sightedness was still bothering him, and the high Abedam Himself ate and drank with them, all of a sudden there arose a loud howling from many people from the morning region and one smoke column after another rose up from the lowlands.
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At this sudden occurrence almost all the children of the heights were taken aback, nobody quite knowing what to make of this, not even Seth or Enoch.
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But Adam, terrified, rushed to Abedam and asked Him, saying: "Most loving, holy Father, what is this again?
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"No sooner have I calmed down after all I have already experienced today than something else crops up which is even more menacing than the former!
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"O holy, dear Father, comfort us, yes comfort us all, and show us graciously what this is and from where it comes! Who is the originator of this howling? What will become of it? What will be its consequences?
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"O You dear, holy Father, comfort our hearts, if it be Your holy will!"
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But Abedam, still sitting at the food basket, said: "Listen, and tell Me: What will you do if I tell you to a jot what the howling is, from where it comes and why, what will be the consequence, and also why I allow it? Tell Me: What will you do then?
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"I tell you, nothing else but what you are doing now.
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"If you had the slightest understanding you would do without any fear what I Myself do on this occasion, namely, be quiet and eat and drink, and love Me in your heart.
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"For he who by My side worries and cares, is served right when devastating storms begin to rage in him and reduce to dust one mountain of trust in my endless might and love after another in his heart.
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"Thus also you are not done an injustice when your heart is upset, because you do not firmly believe that all things are subservient solely to Me.
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"What evil has ever befallen you or anyone else with all the great phenomena occurring during this My visible presence among you on the height since the Pre-Sabbath?
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"Having in My presence at all times escaped unscathed, why are you now afraid?
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"Therefore, be unconcerned and go to your former place, and eat and drink; but when you will see Me rise from the ground, you may do the same. Amen."
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Hereupon Adam went back to his erstwhile place, eating and drinking, yet like one who does not quite enjoy his food; and in his heart he soliloquized as follows:
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"My God- and my Lord, You are, of course, right in everything! I am probably myself to blame for my trouble, and I know for sure, come what may, - He has at all times saved us and will surely not let us perish this time either - this is certain and sure -;
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"But despite all this, I and many others are exposed to an always excessively great fear! Of what good is this?
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"Why must I be afraid for nothing at all?
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"Is such a definitely empty fear good for anything?
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"For what really, since nothing follows which would justify a fear and anxiety?
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"But still I must be afraid, which is now also the case, though I know that not a hair on our heads will be touched.
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"Or am I afraid because I am afraid of the fear of my heart? How can one be afraid for fear of fear?
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"For, when I am afraid, the fear is already there and is a single, but not a twofold evil.
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"Seeing that the Lord at all times saves us from the cause of our fear, why does He allow us to decline into fear, which is also a great evil?
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"Or would not the real, inescapable evil as such without the preceding fear be better than the terror before the same?
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"In short, despite all my reflections I cannot see any benefit in the fear preceding some evil.
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"Therefore, the great Savior from all evil could well free us also from that of idle fear or at least show us what, and for what purpose, fear is!"
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No sooner had Adam thought this, behold, Abedam rose and, summoning Seth and Enoch, spoke to them in secret.
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This bothered Adam even more still; and when soon after Seth and Enoch left for the morning region he was totally bewildered.
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Though he did not dare utter his fear aloud, fear and curiosity were mounting in his heart.
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But Abedam acted as if he did not notice this and right away summoned Garbiel and Besediel to Him.