The Great Gospel of John
Volume 3
Jesus' Precepts and Deeds through His Three Years of Teaching
Jesus near Caesarea Philippi
- Chapter 170 -
The contradiction between wanting and doing.
Jarah says, "Yes, Lord, my only love that would be correct in all things and actually best of all if one only had a purely divine teaching at one's side at the same time! But we people are often so blind - and especially in the moments when we should see the sharpest - so that we do not see the wood for all the trees! And it is not a pick better with the true wisdom of life in the important moments of life. There where we need it the most, it fails us; and when we do not need it to a great degree, we are full of higher thoughts and ideas! Therefore it is always a strange thing with us people!
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Nothing seems to me as good as my own will; but even that cannot finally be boasted of so much, because it is lacking in the full strength of completion. For one often wants something very good but either does not do it, or one does exactly the opposite of the good that one wants. I do not know the reason for that; but I know from personal experience that it is so.
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Lord, my love! Through Your all-powerful mercy I have been allowed to take a most wonderful look into Your great planetary creations and I now know more in this respect than all the wise men of the Earth together. I know what the endless depths of Your heavens hide; but why do I not know myself then?!"
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I say, "Because you yourself are a much more wonderful being than all the great suns and worlds together! There is a much more wonderful heaven in the heart of a person than the great one there which you see with your eyes.
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You see, all material is a judgment and an iron necessity! You can look at it from outside and from inside as much as you like, and some pharmacists[physicists] possess the knowledge of how to divide material up into its original elements. And this rare knowledge is called the knowledge of division, which will be perfected more and more over time.
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In the same way that you can recognize a stone quite accurately from the outside and from the inside, you can also recognize a whole world! Our Mathael is very familiar with this art; also My disciple Andrew, who also stayed with the Essenes, is a qualified pharmacist, an art which he learnt in Egypt. These two will explain to you the matter of the whole world with much skill and much truth. Truly there is still something inside matter which no scientist will ever find out; but he can recognize the actual elements of which some matter consists, although never the elements in themselves, because they are made of the spiritual and can only be thoroughly recognized by a pure spirit. For something infinite is hidden in the elements!
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But something even more infinite lies in the human soul and his spirit! That cannot be discovered by any chemical or physical analysis, and I Myself therefore had to come to you people in order to teach you what no man could ever have found out by himself.
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Therefore you can see that I came out of the heaven of heavens to you for the sake of your observed indecency, and I am teaching you what no-one else could teach you!
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Now you certainly do not yet understand how you can have something in your will but nonetheless do not act according to your will, but instead you act according to some external motivation which you do not know, and the mute desires of the flesh often decide on an action against the will of the spirit. For the will is not part of the flesh and blood and of the soul, which formed the flesh and blood and then even took the food for its construction out of the same, but instead it is part of love which is My spirit in you, and therefore you are not only My creations, but also My true children and you will one day reign with Me in My kingdom for all eternity.
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But for that you must be reborn again fully, otherwise such a thing would be impossible!
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Do you understand this, My dearest little daughter?"